I'm experiencing a different kind of Christmas season this year. Quite different from those of the past. I can't really say that it is one thing in particular, but perhaps an accumulative of several things.
I'm not sad and I'm not down and out about the change......I think it would be correct for me to say that I'm more appreciative of the season, more appreciative of life, and more in tune with learning to be content.
Does this mean that everything has been going so smooth for me, and therefore I am able to be more reasonable with life? No....it doesn't! The fact is....I actually have (mentally) been on a fast moving roller coaster that doesn't seem to be slowing down any time soon.
It's a new frame of mind that has kept me engaged in the understanding that all things do not have to be perfect! All things are not going to work out the way my heavily engaged mind expects things to work out.
I've learned that the important things in life that make this season so very special, are things that I have (in the past).... taken for granted.
My precious dad is now in the stages of his Alzheimer's, where his body is no longer able to function the way it is suppose to. It's difficult to watch the changes each day that make it more difficult for him to live.
Even though Tyler will be home this Christmas, (for which I am extremely thankful for).....the next 5 years could and will paint a completely different picture of our family Christmas traditions, and family time together.
My Facebook is filled with so many people in need of help for the Christmas season.....and this is one of those things that makes me wonder why can't we all go back to just a SIMPLE CHRISTMAS???????
I have a personality trait that can be good at times, but it can also be very difficult and challenging.
I like to be in CONTROL....
I would love to be able to step in and make things better for my dad....but I can't!!
I would love to be able to guarantee that Tyler will be here every year for Christmas....and that his new journey will be easy.....but I can't!!
And oh how I would love to be able to financially help all of those that are in need....but I can't!!
This Christmas season has allowed me to see that there is more to Christmas, than just the giving and receiving of gifts. It's about life!!!!
It's more than celebrating the birth of Jesus Christ.....IT'S ABOUT ACCEPTING THE GIFT OF THE WORLD...."JESUS CHRIST"....AND HAVING A WONDERFUL AND LOVING RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM...KNOWING HIM AS OUR LORD AND SAVIOR!
I am in love with the Season and I'm thankful for each simple detail of my life.....
Shug
In each post, you share from the heart and most often this gives me reason to think deeply about my life and how I am living it.No,it's definitely not the way I would like it or how I thought it would look at this stage in my life, but God is good and most of my life is filled with good things. Thanks for sharing your heart.I really do appreciate each post.
ReplyDeleteShug, I understand your feelings. Our Christmas also seems in upheaval. With the passing of my mother-in-law and other family issues, everything has changed. We will be traveling during the holidays and I feel in control of nothing! I am turning it over to The Almighty. The only thing I can do. Prayers for you!!!
ReplyDeleteWhat an awesome post... I too have changed my 'attitude' about the season. I had a rough Fall this year and went through some emotional problems which in turn caused physical problems. ALL of this was brought on my STRESS I put on myself.
ReplyDeleteGeorge took me on a wonderful trip to Florida (to his son's home for Thanksgiving) and then to our favorite place at the beach in North Carolina. I spent much of those couple of weeks praying for God to help me get rid of the stress.... AND--guess what? It happened. I came home stress-free and have been feeling good (sleeping now, not upset, relaxed, etc.)....
YES---I have LOTS to do (afterall-it's the Christmas season), but my attitude is totally different... I am one blessed old woman--thanks be to God...
I published a cute blog post this morning. Check it out when you get time.
Hugs and Merry Christmas,
Betsy