Oh wow....I just typed this entire post and then....my finger slipped and it disappeared. Let me try again!!
No perfect words are needed when we are meeting with God. I don't always pray with bent knees....No, sometimes I pray when my hands are filthy, as I'm busy potting my flowers. Sometimes I pray driving down the road...Often, I pray when I am just out walking.
I also have those moments when I am so sleepy, but yet God is speaking to me. At 2:00 A.M. my prayers sometimes do not make much sense, especially when I am... in-and-out-of-sleeping... and praying. But...They still matter and they are still heard.
Many times, this is when my prayers sound more like questions. Or sighs. Or sometimes my only word is "Lord."
No fancy words. No big endings. Just His name hanging there with me in the dark.
I don't always finish my sentences and if I'm being real honest, I sometimes wonder if God becomes disappointed with me. The truth is....God does not grade our prayers!!! π I said: "God Does NOT grade our prayers!"
He is listening to our hearts no matter where we are, no matter what we are doing. He hears the tiredness in our voices and he hears the fears that we try to hide. AND...He understands the things we don't even know how to say.
God doesn't ask us to clean up our prayers and He doesn't say you need to polish up your words and tie them with a beautiful bow. He just wants us to come as we are!
Messy and real.
My point? God isn't searching for polished prayers or perfectly strung together words. He is listening for a willing heart. A heart that shows up even when it is tired. A heart that simply says, "Lord, I am here."
This week...Holy Week...reminds me just how personal that invitation is.
I am thankful for this sacred time of reflection...a time to slow down and remember that Jesus walked toward the cross knowing every detail, every pain, every weight He would carry, and He did it anyway. He did it for you and He did it for me.
He bore the cross not because He had to, but because He chose to. He stretched out His arms in love, taking on our sins, our burdens, our brokenness, so that we could walk in freedom, grace and forgiveness.
Because of His sacrifice, we don't need perfect words. We can come to Him just as we are with no rehearsing and no pretending.
This Holy week is about drawing near to the One who gave everything so we could Know Him!
* I will be gone a good portion of today. We have an appointment with the eye doctor for Sam. Hoping to get on the schedule to have his surgical procedure done.