The Hardest Things I have Ever Had to Do

The Hardest Things I Have Ever Had To Do Is..........

I will never forget the date of August 16, 2006.  This is the day that I took our grandson, Tucker,
to the doctor to have his swollen glands checked.  You expect to see the doctor, get some medicine and go home.  That did not happen in this case. 

I know that many of you have been reading my blog and you probably read the section that I did on
Childhood Cancer: Our Story.  On this particular day, Aug 16th, I had to do something that ranked high on the list of the hardest things I have ever had to do.   I HAD TO TELL OUR DAUGHTER THAT THE DOCTOR WAS ALMOST POSITIVE THAT HER SON HAD LEUKEMIA........And, the doctor was right....Tucker did have leukemia.  I spoke with Sam earlier and he had already prepared her for what I needed to confirm about the diagnosis. 

I had already suspected that something was seriously wrong, but the word leukemia was not what I was expecting.  It broke my heart that day on the way home from the doctor, when Tucker looked at me and said, "Sugar, is there something wrong".   And then my heart was broken again when I saw Trista's face and she knew what the diagnosis was.  This was very hard!

A year earlier, to the exact date (August 16th, 2005), my precious mother passed away.  Just days before her passing, I experienced one of the hardest things I have ever had to do.  I will never forget the day, there in her room at the hospital, when her doctor told me there was nothing more he could do.  He informed me that the hospital would be contacting hospice and that someone would be coming to speak with me.  I was at the hospital by myself that day, when the lady arrived.  We spoke for a very long time and I knew that I had to call my dad and my brothers.  To tell my dad that mother would not be coming home and that we were going to have to take her to hospice weighed heavy on my heart.  How could this be?  She had only been diagnosed with Cancer a few months earilier. 

So many of us have to face difficult times like these in life.  I am so very thankful that I know the Lord.  Isaiah 40:29 says "HE gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak"
Psalm 46:1 says "GOD is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble"  This means that God is not merely a temporary retreat, HE is our strength in any circumstance! 

If you are ever put in the position to face one of the most difficult things you have ever had to do, I would encourage you to Trust in the LORD....Lean on HIM and HE will wrap HIS arms around you and give you the strength you need.  GOD is an awesome GOD and I give HIM praise for seeing me through these very difficult times in my life......

Shug...........

Isaiah 40:31   But, they who wait upon the Lord, shall renew their strength. They shall mount up on wings as eagles,  They shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint  (teach me Lord, teach me Lord, to wait)