We Know Who Holds Our Tomorrows!

Oh Yes......we have experienced one more pothole in the road as we are traveling through this journey of life!  We have to ask...."Will we ever reach a path that is concrete solid ?"   Of course, even concrete can crack or break into pieces......can't it?

What our family has come to realize is that all holes are not the same.  Some can be really deep and dry, while others are shallow, but yet filled with harmful debris.  A lot of the debris is filled with sharp edges for which can tear you to pieces if we allow it to do so.  For those potholes that are deep, it sure takes a lot of energy and Faith to climb to the top.

Sometimes, things can go seriously wrong and even though we want to choose another path to travel down (in order to make life a little easier) we must continue.....marching on, in the direction in which God leads.

I can not tell you how many times I have wondered if I missed God's direction, only to later find that when I was confused......HE was picking my feet up and putting them down every step of the way.....for me!

The road that my family is on right now, has me blundering down one more path that seems to be full of darkness and just ahead,  all I can see is a sign that reads "NO OUTLET"


BUT.......I cannot allow myself to fall into the trap of traveling down a road with negative side rails.  I won't do it!  I refuse to wander to and fro, in and out of thoughts that deliver split second feelings of depression.  I am more than a conqueror.    Romans 8:37  

"No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through HIM who loved us"

There are many different levels of pain!  A lot of times, when we go to see a Doctor, He/She may hold up a pain chart that has different faces, with numbers out beside the face.  If we are in a lot of pain, the face shows that we are in a lot of pain and the number is usually the number 10.  If we feel nothing at all, then the face beside will more than likely have a number 1 beside it. This face, is quite often a face with a smile on it. 

Right now, my pain level would more than likely be off of the chart.  As a matter of fact, I doubt seriously if there is a chart when it comes to measuring one's level of heartache.  

My close friends already know what I am referring to, as I have shared with some of them the heartache that this grandmother feels.  I understand that I am probably an (Overboard) grandmother, but this is my Happy Place and I'm pretty sure that this is where I will remain.  

I was not privileged enough to be able to have a close relationship with my grandparents, as I was growing up.....  (due to their early deaths and sorrows)
Perhaps, this is the reason that I would have to give myself a grandmother rating of more than a 100 percent.

Here is the thing......I am all about family and I love our children and grandchildren more than one could possibly imagine.  When one has troubles or is in pain, then I am going to do whatever is necessary to help them.  Bottom line....It's just my nature to go the extra mile/miles to assure that they are taken care of!

We know what it means to battle for a loved one.  When Tucker was diagnosed with Leukemia......it was as if Sam and I were being given extra doses of adrenaline each day to help us stand strong in the fight (along with Tucker) in order to beat this cancer.  This was GOD!  HE was helping us to do everything that we needed to do in order to help Tuck.  Our Strength was from the Lord!!

Tucker is healed of Leukemia and he is a SURVIVOR!  Thank you Lord!!  I give God ALL of the glory.  

However.....We learned, just this week, that we all (as a family) will be fighting another battle.  Tucker has just been diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes.  To a young teenage boy, who has just been dealt another blow to his health, you can only imagine his sorrow.  

His faith in God is what got him through the battle with Leukemia, and he does love the Lord with all his heart, BUT....there does come a time when each of us reach a point of NOT being able to understand!    Tucker's love for God is so strong, however......his question to all of us was WHY?   Why Me?  

And to be honest, I would have to say that in the back of my head, I have asked the same question!    We do not know the answer to this question and 
our only hope is that someday, when God lays the whole plan out before us, we will be able to see the way HE has used (NOT ONLY TUCKER) but the rest of us to help others along the way.  We will be able to see the good in what has happened.....We will be able to see the Glory that has been given to God through each of these pain staking ordeals.

Yes indeed.....there could be worse things.  I am thankful that we are a close family and that we have each other to lean on.  Most of all, we are a strong Christian family and we know who holds our tomorrows!

Blessings to you all....

Shug ~